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He strikes me as someone who takes life too seriously, living in a separate dimension where Classical music flows and Heidegger’s thought oscillates. As we strolled down alleyways in North London, his hand half-suspended in the air around my waist, loosely attached to my jacket as if clinging on tightly would be the most serious offense.
The rain had stopped when we walked out of the pub, bouts of confusion pursued regarding our departure. Three stops away from where I could have boarded, we sat down and waited. The leaves rustled gently above then as we silently exchange stares of longing. Ezra inclined over but hesitated, examining each inch between us as he got closer…
A bus full of passengers arrived, I turned my face away and seek the shelter of his silhouette, the corner of my eyes captured all the nonchalance and piercing ridicule from the strangers. We froze in that preposterous posture for minutes, sharing the air confined in the imaginary boundaries of intimacy, knowingly ignore our audiences’ invitation.
More drunken remarks on Gary Snyder and Andrei Tarkovsky were exchanged on the upper deck, all too serious for the holiday season. Slowly I laid my head down in his arms, indulge myself in the clean laundry smell of his ramie shirt. I was dazed.
As we lay naked in bed I counted the scars on his arm, thistles and thorns knitted him a souvenir of wilderness, rosy threads paved the tattooed skin in a futile attempt to erase the manifesto of a past life… He had conquered them all, but lost his Jerusalem. He is on exile again.
Almost obstinately humble, the towering figure rolls on.